Redundancy Diaries #1

30 June. Nine weeks till lift off. I hear you’re leaving [sad pouting pity face] so sorry to hear that. What will you do..? This question is posed daily. Usually in the lift. Usually by someone I sort of know in passing but who doesn’t know me in the slightest. I ought to have cards […]

Unhappy birthday to me

Had a birthday at the weekend. Woo hoo. Don’t mean to be ungrateful. People were nice. Gave hugs, wished Happy Birthday, bought me a pint, spent time with me, got me cards. I’m alive to see 44. Lots of people aren’t. All that. It’s four and a half years since I started this blog. Ostensibly […]

The Sadness Werewolf

I’ve a secret. I’m a lycanthrope. On the outside, I’m a (fairly) normal seeming middle-aged woman. Gregarious, witty, beloved by many. Inside, however, I’m composed almost entirely from sadness. I’ve spent a lifetime wrapping myself in silver – layers upon layers of protection; protection for myself from the sadness inside and from the external prompts […]

Tempus fugit

The analogue clock on my kitchen wall – cat-shaped with a pendulum tail – reads quarter to six. It’s been quarter to six for about six months. I’ve not gotten around to changing the batteries, in the same way I don’t get around to much of anything. So it’s perpetually quarter to six, no matter […]

Time slowed

Every day lasts a thousand years when your heart is heavy with sadness. No blue sky, bird song nor flittering butterfly can bring respite. Choose happiness! they say. Take joy in mindful moments! they say. Just. Try. Harder. I reach out for a moment, however small it eludes me. Sorrow’s anchor remains firmly chained to my […]

We are all broken

A friend posted on Facebook recently that they worried about being too broken to love. I’ve been reflecting on this. To my mind, only a few types of people in this world aren’t broken. You might not be broken if… you’re five, and experiencing a contented childhood you’re amazingly fortunate to have lived a life […]

#WhereDovesDie: Death on Gozo

They kill doves on Gozo. As on Malta. Any bird is a target. Tiny songbirds fall from the sky. On a walk around the coast …exclaiming at the diversity of plants, arthropods and lizards …pausing at the summits of hills to delight in a turquoise sea under an azure sky I notice an armchair, reached […]

The story of the siblings in the big house

I had a dream. It was quite interesting. It tells the story of a brother and sister. I need you to finish and/or flesh out the story for me.  This is what happened. There were a sister and a brother living together in a big house. I don’t know their names. The house was big. […]

To surviving another year

New Year is interesting. In reality – just another day. And also in reality, albeit with a greater degree of construction – there’s a new number on the calendar and a sense of New Beginnings. We can put the old year behind us and look forward to everything being different, and better, in the coming […]

I don’t want to bomb Syria. I am not a terrorist sympathiser. I can think beyond 1 and 0.

I continue to have suspicions that humans are in fact sophisticated (or praps *not* so sophisticated) artificial intelligences. As a species, we seem to need things to be ones or zeros, and struggle with complexity. “If you’re against bombing ISIS, it means you support ISIS.” No. Firstly, it’s not going to be ‘bombing ISIS’, it’s […]